fire ants are very small creatures that can do a lot of damage. i don't like not being able to sleep at night because my feet are itching and i can't resist the urge to scratch them. (side note: i used to always get the words itch and scratch mixed up, and maybe still do if i don't think about it before i say it. i used to ask people to itch my back. nobody has ever confused me with einstein.) need to google how to get rid of fire ant bites real soon while i still have skin left on my feet.
it was great to hear today in my class that even my professor thinks these classes can be a bit much on the human psyche. that was all i needed to hear, so that i knew at least one other person was feeling what i was feeling. the thing that makes it worse for me is that after sitting in 3 classes like that i get to drive back to raleigh and have plenty of time to reflect on things like PTSD and the affects it has on the brain and is there a way to reverse what damage has already been done, or the 16 year old who has already slept with 80 people and sold herself for drugs and her reality of normalcy from today and for the rest of her life. hours of discussions like that need to be ended with a round of beers and everyone not thinking about it at all. but that's not possible for me because i have to drive back to raleigh. just relieved to know others feel the burden of those conversations and the impact they can have on someone, even the professor who is also a therapist with years of experience. that helps ease my anxiety over it.
cowboy boot time is getting near. the weather is getting closer and closer to a comfortable temp. for wearing cowboy boots. yes sir! and also this weather makes me want to go to a very scary haunted house and drink hot chocolate and then go cuddle with a cute boy.
i don't have a favorite season. i like them all and anticipate the arrival of each new season. i do have a favorite holiday though. least favorite is new year's. too much build up for no reason. i can do that all by myself every day of my life. no fun to build something up only to always be let down. nothing happens at 12 except the second hand moves on the clock. next least favorite is valentine's day...for every reason you've ever heard someone say why they don't like it. favorite holiday would be christmas for so many reasons, and then thanksgiving for so many reasons that are along the same lines of christmas, and then july 4th. july 4th is one of the most underrated holidays there is. i like the camaraderie that i feel everyone else is feeling. good day to serve as a reminder of what great things we do have. plus red hot dogs and the beach and fireworks. three very awesome things.
that's enough for now....need to go watch Oprah.
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You make me want to study sociology-jeez, I could talk about people for hours-maybe that is what I should do:) I guess b/c I would have much to bring to the table:)
BTW, this might surprise you coming from someone who is married, and I am in the minority, I am sure, BUT.......I HATE valentine's Day WITH A PASSION!!! Chad is probably sooo relieved to know that, but we both agree....it is a day to make men and women alike feel like crap-it's horribly overrated. The men feel the need to buy roses, earrings, a nice dinner, and the women actually expect it!! (SHame on them!!) I work the holiday and I see the smug in the women's faces as they sup on wine and dine on the chateaubriand and creme brulee'! It's disgusting, really. I feel so sorry for the men. Maybe it's because we share a checking account, and I know how broke we both are, but I told him I NEVER want a gift for that holiday. Chad and I do NOT celebrate it AT ALL! I wouldn't even tell him to write me a card, because that is something I might want on our anniversary, but not V-Day. It's a day to make men tell women they love them-if they love them, they can do that on ANY day of the year!
Rant over:)
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